I ask my wife to marry me everyday. Or sometimes I thank her for marrying me. Every single day, I make sure that my wife knows that I love being married to her. It has been almost ten years since our first date, we've been married for over six years and I plan to let her know every day for the rest of my life that I want her to be my wife.
I know that my self-esteem decline interferes with me and my husband's intimacy. I know I don't feel attractive and that's why I'm not attracted. So I will continue to pray that I rediscover myself, that I rediscover my femininity, and that I gain the motivation to make myself feel and look beautiful again.
If I could sum up the era of my life in which I was discovering my sexuality in one word, that word would be: shame. Despite the personal nature of this story, I feel compelled to share it, because I fully believe that no young woman should have to experience such intense shame -- yet the sad truth is, most do.