What was I thinking when I thought I could picture a life with my daughter before I met her? Did I really think just because I was her mother I could shape her into exactly the child/girl/woman I wanted her to be?
Why is it that in the darkest of times, we look for the brightest of things? I'm asking because I'm not sure myself--yet that is exactly what I did on the beach, alone with my mother in the April of my senior year of high school.
If Momma were the decision maker, I might have gotten that job offer I lost a few years ago because they thought I wasn't someone who rolled up their sleeves. Didn't they hear me say I started my own award-winning, multi-million dollar agency in the most cut-throat city in the world?
Many moms of families who do not fit the preconceived "norm" may find themselves feeling like the odd mom out, not fitting neatly in with any one social circle. The fact is the things that make us feel different are the same things that help us relate to almost any type of family.
Life is busy. For stay-at-home moms, working moms, work-from-home moms, or any other kind of mom, life is rushing by. If you are like me, you are trying to capture the gloriously ordinary moments in your child's life.
Graduating from Yale is such a huge milestone and accomplishment, and something I am very proud of, but watching the season finale of Empire or something on OWN or HGTV with you is better than walking across a stage in New Haven. At the end of the day mom, YOU are worth more than me than my degree.
These memories help comfort me. For they are a reminder that for as long as I have life and breath, our mothers live inside of us. They are a reminder that a mother's love is eternal. And reason enough, for me, to always wear a red rose on Mother's Day.
It seems strange not to be planning a gift and what we will do for my mom on Mother's Day. She passed away almost 3 years ago, and there are still times I think, "I want to tell mom that", before realizing she's not here anymore.