That illness has given me proof that I can indeed find the strength to rise up. It taught me that, despite the brokenness that comes along with it, my brain can still perform to society's limited standards, and beyond. It would be silly not to say thank you to it, especially when it's in full force, testing this thing I call resilience.
Kids often get knee pain. When it persists, an X-ray may show a lesion of the articular cartilage: the bearing surface of the joint. That lesion is usually called Osteochondritis dissecans, a terrible and misleading name that implies inflammation (itis) and drying out (dissecans), though neither is present in the condition.
I still argue with myself over the need to apologize to dead animals, but I no longer have to fight against apologizing to tires or old t-shirts or single discarded shoes. I still battle with the universe and my expectation that it is just looking for an excuse to ruin everything. I still seek balance.
When I see something that triggers anxiety, whether it's an actual physical manifestation or just in the mind's eye, I distract myself until my anxiety subsides. In my quest to recalibrate from distressed to de-stressed, I have found the following four quick-tricks to be, easy, practical, and effective anxiety antidotes.