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God, Life and the Spiritual Practice of Surrendering 'Complete Control'

Posted: 02/16/11 07:23 PM ET

"Complete Control Matters." Read the poster at the Chicago airport. The copywriters know their audience because I suspect this belief in complete control is one many of us hold. And it is certainly one we desire. We want to be in complete control. Show no weakness. No fear. And stand as the rugged individualist in complete control of our emotions, our world and our destiny. We want to be gods while at the same time being atheists or at least agnostic -- to hedge our bet.

I noticed this poster because I had been reflecting on how little control we actually have in our lives and that we would do well to practice letting go -- to cultivate a ferocious surrender. Surrender to our mistakes, surrender to life's fragility and surrender to the people around us -- complete surrender to the many things well beyond our control. There is freedom in owning this truth. Owning the fact that we can be very good at making a mess of things and very bad at admitting it. Accept the reality that we really do care even if we may pretend we don't. And there is no value in denying that we don't hurt. It may hollow us out but it expands our souls and makes us more human. Sadness is part of the dues we pay for a life well lived. And while it is painful and we have to mourn those losses and learn from them, ultimately we have to let go of them -- integrate them. How do we become more whole? By learning that we are all broken.

There is an insect that lives in many rivers called a Caddis Fly. On a fishing trip in Idaho my guide began a meditation about his struggles with God and religion. I said I agreed with him. And then said I was a rabbi. Apparently he had never been fly fishing with a rabbi. And I told him there probably weren't many of us. But it opened up a conversation about the theology of fishing, the wilderness and the Caddis Fly. During its larval stage the Caddis Fly collects grains of sand and creates a stone cocoon around itself. What starts as a shelter becomes a fortress and ultimately many live and die encased inside their pebble tombs.

We do the same thing. Year by year, stone by stone, fear by fear, we gradually build our own crypts in the name of self preservation or the desire to have complete control. The commentator Sefat Emet writes that upon each of our hearts God engraves the word "Life." Over the course of our years the engraving gets covered with grit and dirt until the word is lost.

Anyone who has ever been in love has learned that the only way to fall in love is to surrender and relinquish control to another. To step, maybe tentatively at first, maybe courageously, from behind our walls and into love's insecurity. One of the lessons I learned in falling in love was that the cave I built and used to retreat to when feeling vulnerable or fearful suddenly had my wife in it. And that when our children were born the entire cave was torn away and I had to get used to my heart and soul walking around outside my body in the form of a four-year old and seven-year old. And the four-year old seems to have no fear, and does things that give him big scars and scares the hell out of me -- watching my son racing down the sidewalk behind his brother and stumbling grips my heart. But I know it is his job to fall and my job to help him back up again, so he can fall again. And I can pick him up again. It is our job as well -- to fall and help each other up.

And often late at night when I can't sleep, I find myself thinking of all the things that are going wrong in the world. The wars, the horrible things we do to each other. The mistakes I have made, the bad decisions. That's when, completely awake now, I usually crawl out of bed, look in at my sleeping children, and hope to God they can hold on to their innocence. And then I start responding to work emails because I want an empty in-box -- something I still believe I can control.

Many of us still haven't learned that we can't have an empty in-box and that we need to give up control to fall in love. By surrendering to another our lives can expand. By letting go we may feel free. On the seventh day, our Creator did not just rest, the Holy One let go. "And God blessed the seventh day and declared it holy, because on it God stopped from all the work of creation." It was God's final and perhaps most important lesson to us. There is a time to let go. With the Sabbath this idea was embedded into the very fabric of Jewish existence. Stop trying to control everything and make it perfect. Even God never said things were perfect. All God said was, it is very good -- there is a difference. We are obsessive perfectionists, maybe God isn't. Consider the platypus.

Letting go is a trait I am committed to cultivating. The vulnerability of acknowledging what is already true. That in admitting I don't have much control of anything really, I can let go of the stress and anxiety that block me from experiencing the beauty in life. And that faith is what I really have. A faith in those around me and that even when things are scary and it appears the world is crumbling it rarely stays that way. Our lives and our souls naturally gravitate toward the light. Toward life. Thya h'matim the revival of the dead. The revival of hope. Of possibility. Of redemption.

I want to remember the exhilaration and peace of giving up control -- of surrendering. Surrender is the ultimate act of faith. At once a faith in the world around us, the people around us and faith in some Higher Order in the world -- call it God, physics or chance. I call it God. It is also very good practice for dying -- the final life lesson and the ultimate surrender. Our Sages comment that when we are born our fists our clenched and when we die they open. If we haven't learned it in life we learn it with our deaths. What would it be like to live with our fists unclenched, our stone walls torn down? The words "Life" emblazoned clearly on our hearts -- living lightly with ferocious surrender. Taking emotional risks in the name of life. In the name of love.

 

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"Complete Control Matters." Read the poster at the Chicago airport. The copywriters know their audience because I suspect this belief in complete control is one many of us hold. And it is certainly on...
"Complete Control Matters." Read the poster at the Chicago airport. The copywriters know their audience because I suspect this belief in complete control is one many of us hold. And it is certainly on...
 
 
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powercosmic
The Anti-Christ
04:23 PM on 02/23/2011
Wow, this nonsense is the perfect example of "Theology" for the POOR.

See? Its the poor who are advised to "surrender" and "let go" and on on.

Its really quite odd that this "Theology" is coming from a Rabbi? isn't it?

After all its the "Je.wish State" of Is.rael that is wanting "Complete Control" over some land, and the people who may live on it.

The other funky thing about this "Theology" is this: If "letting go" and surrendering is so useful and advisable, and spiritual then why is the Chri.stian Right so interested in Politics?

Why is the Chri.stian Right so interested in destroying Science education?

Why is the Chri.stian Right so interested in the indoctrination of Children?

Look Americans may be fools but how long do you think the scam of this kind of "Letting Go" fly?

My Advice? Anyone telling you to surrender, or forgive, or to let go, is just trying to rip you off in one way or another.

Also, and this is important, this Rabbi guy is probably completely sincere in every way about what he is saying, but who is he? Why would you have any reason to believe that his "Theology" applies to you?

In first century Judea, before the Roman siege of Jeru.salem in 69 CE, the Je.ws never once considered "surrender." Even though the Romans brought opportunity, engineering, and peace to the provinces they annexed.
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Stokes
11:58 AM on 02/23/2011
"Adam, the first of God's creation, has risen above all that is unclean."(inspired to write on 10-17-1984)

Christ had to shed carnality to the point of shedding His blood for all of mankind. He died for the freedom of the Spirit of God in all human flesh. As we approach the last days ahead, we all need to strive for the inner peace that comes to us when we heed the teachings of Christ. Do to others as we would have them do to us, love your neighbor, care for strangers, love your enemies, do good to those who persecute you, Let us strive through the teachings of Christ so that we can overcome the rising turmoil which we are about to encounter.
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powercosmic
The Anti-Christ
04:25 PM on 02/23/2011
Good one!

The fact is that when the times get really rough humans stick together because the starvation psyche is Evolutionary evidence that Humans instinctively need to stick together.

In the USA, the land of plenty, people are miserable and at each others throats because they have no need for each other.
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merrymay
09:01 PM on 02/22/2011
Thanks for a good reminder that the world constantly barrages us with anxiety and bad news. Our duty to God and others is to ignore it. Remember it to God, then let it go.
Agatha Christie used to say it was when a mother was worrying about politics and the world that the baby tips over the hot kettle.
Worry can't add an inch to your height or a day to your life, Jesus said. You've said it, too.
11:38 AM on 02/21/2011
Open hands, open minds.. I hope many other who read your lines felt more human too.. Thank you for bringing me to tears, Rabbi.
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rgilley
10:59 AM on 02/21/2011
The "complete control" religionist want us to give up, is to the leaders of religions not to spirituality.
The successive popes and their Jewish and Muslim counterparts have been responsible for more deaths and mascres through this control than any group of human beings on the planet.
And all for a loosly related group of myths that have no more validity in reason than do Zeuz and Athena myths. When humans decides to rid themselves of social scurges once and for all Religion will be at the top of the list.
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Stefan Bast
Just a punk from Hamburg, Germany.
08:40 PM on 02/20/2011
You lost me at the "surrender to the people around us." I am still with the "Enlightenment is the liberation from self-inflicted dependency" crowd. If you had qualified the people, that are trustworthy enough to surrender to, I might have given it a second thought.
But when a proponent of a strictly hierarchical tradition offers me unconditional surrender as a spiritual choice for a better life, my spider sense just starts running amok..
11:14 AM on 02/20/2011
Excellent article.... As a Christian with ocd, letting go, surrender and relinquishing control, takes on an extra special significance.....Richard Rohr, in his book Everything Belongs, says that we need to stay in the belly of the whale, rather than wanting to control and fix everything. Only then, like Jonah, can we be spat upon a new shore.
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powercosmic
The Anti-Christ
04:42 PM on 02/23/2011
Wow, what pedagogical cryptic nonsense.

I can only envision that this is the sort of thing that Catholic Priest would say to a little boy before giving him a rek-tal exam with his peh-n-is
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powercosmic
The Anti-Christ
05:40 PM on 02/23/2011
Why then try to excercise "complete control" over how the bible is perceived?

Because, everyone, except you and your pastor (apparently), knows that the story of Jonah does not say "Whale" ..... it said "Fish"

I quote for from Matthew 12:40:

"And Jonah was in the belly of the fish three days and three nights"

See these tactics might work on schoolchildren and such, but this kind of covering up of the fact that the bible even gets its own "science" wrong.

You are the perfect example of someone who will believe whatever they wish.

I know, I know the modern "theological" idea is to say that "Well, this story is allegory...blah..blah"

But was it allegory 1000 years ago? No, it wasn't. Heck, it wasn't allegory 20 years ago.

Theology, like what the author writes and what your post says is an effort to "Evolve" religion, because science creates an environment in the mind that isn't friendly to religion, so theology has to distance itself more and more from the original nonsense.
04:50 PM on 02/27/2011
Rubbish..........Modern science and psychology has enabled Christians to read the bible in the way it was always meant to....Our understanding of faith evolves like everything else but that doesn't invalidate the truth of it....Religion and the understanding of it evolves just like science, (quantum physics is continually developing), health, law, e.t.c........To say it wasn't read in an allegorical way in the past doesn't mean that to do so now is false....Anyway, what about when Jesus said that people needed to eat His flesh and drink His blood and they all went away. That was obviously a literal interpretation and a mistake on their part...the same when He said to a scribe, you must be born again..the guy didn't understand that comment, again for the same reason. When Christ told people to be like doves, He wasn't asking them to grow wings and lay eggs was He?...........No doubt that you'll rubbish what I've just said but that's your problem, not mine.........www.faithandreason.org
07:40 AM on 02/20/2011
As a primary element of responsibility, 'control' denotes conduct defined by volition. The deliberate act. But all such conduct is informed by whatever informs our reason and the values one hopes to live by. Unfortunately, there are instincts and passions outside volition that limits humanity to a less then fully rational being, less than a fully spiritual and moral being. And surrender of control to faith should only be for the purpose of realizing a greater control over ourselves and ones life called moral progress. It is never the abdication of responsibility. http://www.energon.org.uk
03:40 PM on 02/18/2011
a "complete control matters" sign in an airport actually makes me feel a bit safer. I for one hope the pilot of my plane remains in complete control of that plane. I certainly hope, in the event of an emergency, he spends his energy regaining that control.
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nlightenup
Retired psychologist, responds to open minds.
01:12 PM on 02/18/2011
"...living lightly with ferocious surrender."

Thank you for that.
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11:29 AM on 02/18/2011
Great article, Rabbi! A fear-based life is the opposite of a faith-based life, and the fear of not being able to control everything that happens keeps me awake at night, too. Instead of thinking fearfully--as we tend to do--about all the things that can go wrong and all our contingency plans, we should instead rest assured that even when something bad happens, it will bring us to a new understanding of God, and, hopefully, draw us closer in some way. When I think about the gravity of the line in the Lord's Prayer, "Thy will be done," it is sobering. Easier said than done! Thanks for a great read!
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french queen13
my beloved is mine and I am his
06:25 AM on 02/18/2011
"Consider the platypus"?

HELLO, the platypus isn't some bodged-together half-finished creature! It is a monotreme, one of only two species surviving (the other being the echidna). That it is still here shows it IS perfect for its environment, and has adapted to millions of years of change. Watch what you say, Rabbi, dissing animals because YOU don't happen to think they are "perfect" in some limited, anthropomorphic sense.
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nlightenup
Retired psychologist, responds to open minds.
01:19 PM on 02/18/2011
Yeah, so he messed up with the platypus remark. I take exception to it also, being quite fond of platypuses myself, and regularly reminding my dog that while she is a great dog, she's a washout as a platypus, so she shouldn't be getting too swelled a head about being so great. But I can cut the rabbi a little slack, and don't think it's necessary to yell at him about it. He lives and learns like the rest of us.
02:00 AM on 02/20/2011
"He lives and learns like the rest of us."

This rabbi may live & learn, but can't resist that last minute swipe. I know you've seen J. Acousta's writings.
02:03 AM on 02/18/2011
"We want to be gods while at the same time being atheists or at least agnostic -- to hedge our bet."

Atheists don't hedge this bet, and don't believe they or anyone else is god.

"Taking emotional risks in the name of life. In the name of love."

how about just calling it what it is, living?
researcher
researcher
11:07 PM on 02/19/2011
there are many ways to live. love or without love.

the god that the religious worship does not exist cannot exist and will never exist. thank the lord for that. :-) sorry my idea of humor.

materialism is a system of beliefs just like religion is a system of beliefs. two sides of the same coin called unawareness. the interesting part is that neither side of that coin has a clue they are sharing the same coin.

no one remains on that coin forever. evolution demands otherwise.
01:55 AM on 02/20/2011
A tiger above, a bear below, hanging by a slipping branch, Look! a strawberry.

The religious might call the the materialist focus nihilism. What might you call the "religious" focus rejecting materialism?
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ZENNEPHI
10:24 PM on 02/17/2011
A healthy prochoice amidst all [Spiritual Travelers]' of that "Big Brother" in the Sky.
Up until One owns. up to the "Follies of Our Youth".
With "Honesty in All of Our Affairs'" we wouldn't be more then Pinokeoo with strings
to blow us to and fro. Let's our Not Come out our Closeted nature, on behalf of
that "Higher Power.". Clean that Closet. Then now, let us all above the Heavens.


For all that require further study: {If it be need, that you read these Words.}

"The Sky is the Limit" [Doctor Wayne Dyer]
Simon/Schuster Books and Tapes

"Your Errounius Zones" [Doctore Wayne Dyer]
Doubleday Books and Tapes

"The Lord is my Shepard, and He knows I'm Gay"
Metropolitan Community Church Outreach-Dallas
[The Reverent Troy Perry]
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rezna
Occupy HuffPost
07:41 PM on 02/17/2011
Beautiful, thank you!