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Shaneika Dabney

Shaneika Dabney

Posted: January 26, 2010 09:27 AM

Super Bowl XLIV: The Trauma, Joy, and Delirium of Watching Our Saints Go Marching In

What's Your Reaction:

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Take a look in the mirror, Saints fan. Notice that shit-eating grin? Sweet, ain't it? No, no, don't look away. Take it all in. This is your body's natural reaction to having a monkey off your back.

For the next few moments, I want to take you along for a journey. Oh don't worry, I won't recap the long, troubled history of the Saints, the ugly "Brown Bag" era, the tragic "Aints" days, the emotional Hurricane Katrina connection. We all know that story. Hell, we all lived it. I want to relish in the moment we're in right here, right now. I want to wallow in the emotion of the past 48 hours.

We couldn't sleep on Saturday night. We tossed and turned like kids on Christmas morning. We knew what we'd asked for but we couldn't quite predict what Santa had in store for us under the tree. We barely made it through our Sunday brunch, our stomachs churning with anticipation. We went to church (well, some of us) and felt halfway guilty for praying for our Saints, until of course the priest sneaked in a "Bless you, boys!" Those not fortunate enough to make it to the dome settled in front of the TV and halfway watched the Colts toy with the Jets. We were there in body, but our minds were already in fast forward.

Then finally, it was our time; kickoff in the dome. From the opening drive until the final play, it was as if the Saints had bottled up the intensity, anxiety, disappointment, exhilaration, terror, excitement, nausea, horny-ness, anger, frustration, breathlessness, drunkenness, exhaustion, heartache, delirium, bitterness and elation of us Saints fans from the past 42 years and poured it directly over our heads. I was drowning in emotion.

Were you with me, Saints fans?

Emotional roller coasters are what we've come to expect from our team. It's only fitting they'd make history in a match-up that should have come with a complimentary toilet bowl, as the potential for a puke-fest always seemed a mere play away. Cuss words and prayers at times intertwined. "Dear God, please let the Saints stop them on this...F*ck!!!" "Lord, if you help Drew complete this pass, I promise I'll...SON OF A BITCH!!!" We didn't mean to be disrespectful. We'd just reached our limits.

All the characters in this drama fulfilled their expected roles. Reggie Bush played the part of the fumbling dude who literally drops the ball at the worst times. Drew Brees played the part of the inspiring hero who seemed hell bent on victory. The defense played the part of the aggressive "d" that also gives up big plays that make you want to throw something at your dog...or just throw your dog. Brett Favre played the part of the "Tough, Wrangler wearing QB who writhes all over the field in pain after a big hit like he's about to die and really lays it on thick so that when he gets back in the game everyone will say 'Damn, he's so tough.'"

And then, there was Garrett Hartley.

New Orleans Saints vs. Minnesota VikingsWe all knew there'd be an x-factor in this game. It was almost Reggie Bush, in the worst kind of way, until the defense bailed him out. It was almost the defense, until the defense bailed itself out. It was almost the referees with their crazy calls against both teams. But who would have thought that when it was all said and done, the Saints' Super Bowl hopes would rest on the leg of Garrett Hartley.

How did you feel when you saw him lining up for that kick? Did you poop a little? It's okay if you did. Who could judge you? Could you even watch him make the attempt? Did you only know we'd won based on the reaction of those around you? As for me, I was on my knees reciting a jumbled remix of every prayer I'd ever learned. I covered my eyes, then uncovered them. I almost looked like Brett Favre after his "meeting" with Bobby McCray.
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Unlike Favre, I wasn't faking it. My heart may have stopped for a few moments. I definitely held my breath. Then came the kick. It's up...and it's...good!!

Nola Chick loses it...The next few minutes could best be described as a manic state. There was jumping, screaming, I threw something at somebody, rolled on the floor, back on my feet, back to the floor in prayer, more jumping and screaming, running, jumping, screaming, back to the floor. Then, I took a seat and just took it all in...and that's when the tears hit me.

I thought about my dad, who inspired in me a love for this team and this game. The Saints had made it to the Super Bowl in his lifetime. I thought about all the fans who read my blog and commiserate with me when the Saints lose and express such hope at the start of every season. I thought about my friends and all the games we'd been to, all of our crazy superstitions and all the shit we've had to put up with from fans of opposing teams. I thought about my city and what this would mean for so many people who've suffered a shared sense of yearning. I let the emotion pour out of me and I didn't care who witnessed it or even whether they understood it because if they were true Saints fans, they knew exactly what that emotion was all about. And if they weren't Saints fans, they could go screw themselves.

The Saints are going to the Super Bowl.

Allow me to write that again:

THE SAINTS ARE GOING TO THE SUPER BOWL!

This is real. Wait a minute....okay, I just went to ESPN to confirm. Yes, this IS real! We are living our dreams, Saints fans. And doesn't it make sense that this would be the year? Pigs are flying (swine flu), hell's frozen over (snow in florida), and there's a black dude in the White House. How could we have ever doubted?

To the grown men who cried over the Saints win, we adore you. To the women who now no longer think of Saints football as "something they watch cause their boyfriends make them", we welcome you. And to all you Saints fans who followed the instinct to hug or maybe even kiss a stranger, we salute you. Just keep in mind, the journey isn't over. There's one more mountain to climb. No one thinks we can do it, but that may just be the only thing about this experience that doesn't feel brand new.

Article Cross published at Chicks in the Huddle

 

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09:00 PM on 02/10/2010
How bad could Drew Brees' Mother be? You only have one Mother. He seems to be an all American Boy, how could he say his relationship. She missed seeing him be the MVP and winning the Super Bowl, holding his beautiful little boy. What a dream.
09:25 AM on 01/28/2010
America's team? Who decided that? I sure don't consider a dirty team like NO as America's team. How disgusting of a thought. Get over yourselves.
06:32 PM on 01/27/2010
Unless you are a long standing pre katrina saints fan, you probably don't understand the emotions expressed by fans. Let me try to help you understand it a little, It took 21 years just to have their first winning season and 35 to get their first playoff berth. Since katrina we've had 2 play off berth, but before that a winning season was a celebration. To actually get to a superbowl, with our history, is beyond belief!!!!!
03:02 PM on 01/27/2010
i feel bad that the whole country is going to hate indy after they kick the crap out of the saints

Should we change the indy mascott to UNHOLY COLTS?
07:26 PM on 01/27/2010
We'll tee it up a week from Sunday, kick off and see what happens. The Colts are great, but we're pretty good too.
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gardengranny
Ever-hopeful for the best; preparing for the worst
04:16 PM on 02/02/2010
We're not good; we are GREAT!

GEAUX SAINTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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gardengranny
Ever-hopeful for the best; preparing for the worst
04:19 PM on 02/02/2010
Yeah, and I bet you said the Vikings would beat the Saints last week, didn't you?
01:17 PM on 02/04/2010
no i really didn't care who won because im from indy
i was just happy it was a good game till the last

The colts just have it allover the saints and pretty much any team
12:23 PM on 01/27/2010
I recorded the game and I don't remember the entire postgame show or the trophy presentation because I was jumping around screaming. I had to go back and watch it again.

I went to a game in San Antonio in 2005, and if you've ever wondered what a dying animal feels like as it watches the vultures circle overhead, all you had to do was be a New Orleans native in the Alamodome that day. Tom Benson showed his true colors after Katrina, and thought he had a done deal to move the team to Texas, courtesy of Governor-for-life Rick Perry. Paul Tagliabue would have none of it, and isn't it interesting how the entire culture of the team changed after that? Rita Benson LeBlanc is the face of the franchise now and enjoys a good relationship with the community, but Saints fans, unanimously, cannot stand the sight of Tom Benson.
01:16 AM on 01/27/2010
Love how you mention your Dad. My Dad was the first person I thought about, having taken me to Saints games since I was a kid in 1969, and helped fuel my love for the NFL and the Saints espeuially. Saw everything at the old Tulane Stadium...Tom Dempsey's kick, streakers in the 70's, crazy people dancin in various states of undress, Crazy Eddie, the Umbrella Man, and all those times the Saints snatched defeat from the jaws of victory. Then we went to the first game ever (1975 pre-season vs. Oilers) in the Dome, and barely made it through the 'Aints Bag season. But we never lost faith...

Cellphone towers were jammed here n NOLA for 20 minutes after the KICK WAS GOOD, but as soon as I got through, it was a tears-of-joy-filled conversation with the old man.

WOW, it really happened....IT REALLY HAPPENED! THE SAINTS ARE GOING TO THE SUPERBOWL!!! WHO DAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
09:03 PM on 01/26/2010
Geaux Saints!! A great city and great people deserving of a great team. If they win, will the city regather for Mardi Gras or should they just party straight through the two weeks?
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07:33 PM on 01/26/2010
As far as I am concerned, ever since Katrina the Saints are now America's team. I never knew how the Cowboys thought they deserved that name in the first place.

I have been rooting for your (now *our*) Saints so hard!

Go Saints, Go Louisiana, Go Louisianans!

I will be rooting for you with all my heart.
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07:05 PM on 01/26/2010
I was sent the following link by a friend who is a Saints fan. It pretty well sums up a lot of long-time Saints fans feeling, at least many I know. Please be warned the article has considerable Adult Language but this guy is genius. :) I have favorited his blog after reading other entries. Hope you enjoy:
http://sicklemaster.com/2010/01/13/the-mind-of-a-saints-fan/
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04:40 PM on 01/26/2010
It still feels like a dream. i know that sounds cliche but i have no other way to put it. this feeling is unbelievable. it's like im incapable of being annoyed right now. im riding on a black and gold cloud. And i love how everyone doubts are super bowl chances. it's only giving our boys ammunition to play their best! WHO DAT!
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gardengranny
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04:13 PM on 01/26/2010
I have been a Saints fan since the team's inception.

Even if we don't win the SB (my son says we will), I will be happy with this.

BLESS YOU BOYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
04:05 PM on 01/26/2010
Do ya know what it means, to miss New Orleans? I sure do. I spent almost 10 years in The Big Easy, and if ever there was a city that could steal your heart, NOLA was it. I left a big part of my heart there, and probably some of my liver, lungs and kidneys, too.

I went to the dome, wore a bag over my head like many other 'Aints' fans, and suffered through so much heartbreak with The Saints. But I never stopped rooting for them, even though I'm a NY Giants fan at heart. The Saints were also my team, and I'd go to sports bars to catch their games that weren't locally televised. I got beer thrown on me by angry Niners fans when The Saints stole one from them at Candlestick Park on a last-second field goal.

I felt their pain, and I revel in their glory now. Who dat? Who dat? Who dat say dey gonna beat dem Saints? Laissez les bon temps roulez, cher.
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03:41 PM on 01/26/2010
Shaneika, you just described every bit of my - and I'm sure every member of the Who Dat Nation's -experience on Sunday perfectly. Not since the horror of 2005 have we been so emotionally as one in this city. Geaux Saints!!!!!!!!!!!
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Earnest Harris
10:17 AM on 01/26/2010
The perfect description of what I was feeling too. OMG! I still can't focus on anything more important than the Saints. Is there anything more important right now. And even though I'm not there in New Orleans, I have driven everybody around me crazy here in L.A. reminding them, not every minute, but every hour or so, just how big this is.

This is going to be a looonnng two weeks but then again I wish it could last forever.

Who Dat?!