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When Global Warming Ate My Life

Posted: 05/ 2/2012 3:00 pm

Hell is not a place; it's a time. It starts with the experience of irreversible loss and ends as you learn to live with loss. My hell time began on a summer night in 2009 while wrapping brownies at the kitchen table in our Maine farmhouse.

Fifteen years earlier my husband and I gave up fame and fortune to raise our son and daughter on a Maine farm. We wanted them to grow up with the respectful down-to-earth values of our small Maine town. We hoped they would shape deeply lived authentic lives surrounded by natural beauty and bound to the rhythms of the seasons. Our life was a celebration of long Huck Finn summers and cozy snowy winters. We created an 18th century household filled with books, music, and memories in which we all worked and played. It was our sanctuary -- the safest, happiest place on earth. Later our children taught us to be green. We installed windmills and solar panels, recycled and composted, and became more mindful of our footprint. Still, we felt safe from the worst ravages of global warming in our bucolic corner of the "first" world here in New England. The real catastrophes were "out there" in sub-Saharan Africa, Bangladesh, the Andes or tiny Pacific islands. Then global warming crashed our party in paradise.

That night I thrilled to the thunderstorm raging outside. Then a bolt of lightning crashed through the kitchen window, mowed me down like a freight train hurtling through my chest and triggered a blast so loud I thought the sound barrier had been breached somewhere between the crockery and the curtains. When I opened my eyes, I was lying on the floor. Then came smoke. Fifteen minutes later we were out in the storm, watching in disbelief as our beloved home vanished in a towering wall of flame.

I am not a climate change scientist, but I have come to understand that I am a climate change victim. Our daughter took the lead investigating destructive lightning in Maine. She found that the NASA Goddard Institute estimates a 5-6% change in global lightning frequencies for every 1 degree Celsius global warming. The Earth has already warmed .8 degrees Celsius since 1802 and is expected to warm another 1.1-6.4 degrees by the end of the century. Maine's temperatures rose 1.9 degrees Celsius in the last century and another 2.24 degree rise is projected by 2104. I learned from our insurance company that while the typical thunderstorm produces around 100 lightning strikes, there were 217 strikes around our house that night. I was shocked to discover that when it comes to increased lightning frequency and destructiveness, a NASA study concluded that eastern areas of North America like Maine are especially vulnerable. Scientists confirm a 10% increase in the incidence of extreme weather events in our region since 1949.

Was the lightning bolt in our kitchen caused by global warming? The facts are too compelling to ignore. It seems that global warming turned my family into refugees in our own lives, stripped of everything that once carried our memories and meaning. Since then I've learned some lessons that may help others reckon with the realities of climate change and the terrifying prospect that our future will be different from our past.

As thick smoke quickly filled the house, I had only a few minutes to do something. I ran upstairs, closing doors to protect the bedrooms from smoke damage. I ran back down and pulled photo albums off the living room shelves, tossing them on a sheltered porch. I was on my way for more when the fire marshal arrived. He pulled me back, shouting over the din of rain and thunder and ordered me away.

What was I thinking! There was so much I could have rescued in those minutes! Instead I closed doors to rooms that would no longer be. I sheltered precious photos on a porch soon to disappear. I acted as though our home faced a temporary assault -- a blip and a return to baseline. It never occurred to me that my status quo confronted a mortal threat and could be extinguished forever. My mind did not conceive that in a few hours everything we had worked for and cherished would no longer exist.

I committed a cognitive error that I call "the error of predictability." It is the deeply ingrained tendency of every living system -- from the human brain to microorganisms to complex societies -- to operate as though the near future will follow from the near past. As a social scientist I have studied this pattern for decades. I've pored over control room transcripts in which operators ignored catastrophic data, preferring to think "bad instruments" rather than "CATACLYSM!" I have worked closely with hundreds of adults in crisis struggling to cope with change. I've consulted with companies reluctant to let go of the past. The morning of the fire I completed work for a chapter in my new book. The title? The Error of Predictability. Apparently knowledge did not inoculate me from this error.

Since that night I've been on an inner search for an antidote to the error and discovered a special kind of capability that I think of as "the pivot." The mechanism of a pivot is paradoxical because it unites two opposites: the still point and the swivel. It's the fixed center that enables response across a broad range. The pivot is a way of holding yourself toward the future. It entails a self knowledge and resilience that run deeper than words, but also a flexibility that can adapt deftly to any situation. Think of a master tennis player holding herself still in readiness to return the serve but able to reach in any direction quickly and effectively. I've learned that no instant is ordinary. Each is replete with every potential from the miraculous to the catastrophic. Living with this attitude, I don't assume continuity. Now I try to stay open to the surprise within each moment -- and pivot.

Climate change is not a blip but an epochal shift, yet we seem unable to do much more than close the doors to rooms bound for extinction. Are we in a countdown to a hell time of irreversible loss or to a renaissance of invention and adaptation? It depends on how we learn to pivot. Every level of the system -- from each person to the governments of the world -- can learn to understand and confront the error of predictability. Naming it and identifying its consequences is a start. Then let's learn how to teach our children, our leaders and ourselves what it means to live without terror in the knowledge that our planet is spinning on a new course.

I thought I could keep my children safe in this peaceful place. Now I know that no one of us can keep our children safe. There is no shelter from the storm of global warming. All we can do is learn how to pivot and impart that soulful skill to those we love. Breed it in their bones that they may become agents of adaptive change in these new times. We are all just earth travelers now: many addresses but only one home.

 

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Hell is not a place; it's a time. It starts with the experience of irreversible loss and ends as you learn to live with loss. My hell time began on a summer night in 2009 while wrapping brownies at t...
Hell is not a place; it's a time. It starts with the experience of irreversible loss and ends as you learn to live with loss. My hell time began on a summer night in 2009 while wrapping brownies at t...
 
 
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06:43 PM on 05/06/2012
While climate change is established as well as anything we consider fact, attributing your particular tragedy to climate change is pretty weak. I think it detracts from the overall message. Climate change made your tragedy somewhat more likely, but it could have just as well happened without climate change. Now if you told me that the incidence of lightning strikes burning down homes in Maine has increased significantly from some baseline, I would say there was a lot more evidence that your particular home was a victim of climate change.
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“An era ends when its illusions are exhausted
07:28 AM on 05/06/2012
We are certainly not safe in New England from Global warming in New England. In the future we ill see milder winters, less cold and snow- but much hotter summers, more droughts, and then the opposite extreme precipitation events that may cause floods. More violent storms and weather events for sure- and increased precipitation year round. Sea rise and storm surges are sure to cause major problems as well. he chance for a cat 5 hurricane of historic proportions is also possible.

Last year in Connecticut there where 3 extreme weather events that cost the state billions of dollars. No we will not become a baked inferno with dry desiccating winds and storms like the heartland of the country- but it will be no paradise here- just less bad.
04:08 AM on 05/05/2012
Solipsism at work? This helps explain the amazing lack of critical thought on the left when it comes to climate change. They are emotionally and egotistically so attached to the notion that human enterprise (aka capitalism) can be attacked on environmental grounds that they have abandoned any requirement for further thought and analysis.
03:02 PM on 05/04/2012
This is silly. Temperatures have cooled in Maine for the last 100 years according to NOAA. But don't let facts get in the way of a good narrative.
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11:55 AM on 05/04/2012
Global warming in New England will mean sea rise, intense storms, and a change in the regions vegetation. The four seasons will be lessened,extreme weather events will increase. The region will become warmer- the weather less predictable.
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08:22 PM on 05/03/2012
Thanks Shoshana. It is heartbreaking to remember your loss. However, your discussion of the error of predictability was also quite thought-provoking. The world changes, often in ways we find hard to imagine. Reading the comments, I can only speculate that the heat generated by those vehemently denying the climate facts that have been affirmed by the vast majority of scientists could by itself warm their immediate environments. I don't think that anything I say will have any effect on those whose purpose or profession is to keep us in a state of denial. However, thank you for doing so.
11:38 AM on 05/03/2012
While I’m genuinely sorry to hear about the impact of the storm on the author’s life, I worry at some level about stories like this, in which isolated extreme events are attributed to climate change. While an increase in extreme events is expected as a result of warming, extreme events would still occur even without warming. It is misleading to focus on isolated events because they are too complex to identify individual causes at the level the author attempts; it is in statistical analyses that real information is to be found.

These kinds of stories are troubling because of litigation efforts to attribute isolated events to climate change and to hold oil and power companies liable. Kivalina, a small village in Alaska that has been strongly impacted by erosion, is probably the most notorious of attempting to use “nuisance” law to impose liability on power producers. The AEC case considered by the Supreme Court did not really resolve this tort theory, even while the Second Circuit found it justiciable (a result difficult to accept in my view and counter to the determination of other circuits). As much as I accept the prevailing scientific view of human impact on climate, I have a hard time seeing these kinds of legal theories as either legitimate or wise – and therefore think the line needs to be appropriately held on making unjustified associations.

The author’s “error of predictability” is interesting enough, but people also engage in correlation errors at times too.
05:32 PM on 05/03/2012
What came to me was idea if she was wrapping the brownies with aluminum foil. She could have been by window with piles of foil wrapped brownies at table, rolls of foil, also maybe those metal mesh trays used to cool biscuits outside oven.
10:41 AM on 05/03/2012
The United States is not going to do much to stop global warming until more Americans acknowledge global warming is real and that humans are a big part of the cause. Yale's Project on Climate Change Communication sums it up well: 97% of climate scientists agree that climate change is real and caused by humans, BUT 35% of Americans are dismissive, doubtful, or disengaged with climate change.

We're trying to raise awareness of climate change with an Ad campaign: http://www.AdsForCauses.com/ad/Climate+change+is+REAL+and+caused+by+Humans/?adid=11

If more Americans knew what the vast majority of scientists think, then our actions and policies would change and we'd start trying to stop global warming.
01:47 AM on 05/06/2012
I'm astonished that it isn't 100%. The questions asked were - have temperatures risen since the mid nineteenth century, and have human activities played a significant role. The answer to both is a clear unequivical yes. Tho' the human influences are the UHI and land management (deforestation).

There was nothing in there to suggest CO2 was involved
09:23 AM on 05/03/2012
When the cure is worse than the disease.

Global warming policies might be bad for your health

http://thegwpf.org/images/stories/gwpf-reports/goklany-public_health.pdf
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09:55 AM on 05/03/2012
Thanks for the link. But can you next time maybe post something from, say, a site that *isn't* funded by those who stand to gain the most by maintaining the current high-polluting fossil fuel status quo?
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07:53 AM on 05/03/2012
Climate Scientists have yet again been caught Pinnocio-like with their noses growing ever longer and their trustworthiness sinking even lower.

This time over fake claims of death threats.

http://tinyurl.com/d9klg9e
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09:56 AM on 05/03/2012
Actually, if you read the report, you'll see that there were real (not perceived) threats made against one or more of those climate scientists.

You really must stop listening to James Delingpole...
10:41 AM on 05/04/2012
Who's the denier now?
04:13 AM on 05/03/2012
It has already been pointed out that NCDC records indicate that the total rise of temperature from 1896 to present is 0.0 degF. She also made the mistake of accepting a 1993 GISS paper on lightning increases based on climate models. However if she would have checked NOAA data on lightning she would have found that lightning strikes in the Northeast and Maine in particular, have been declining.

http://www.nssl.noaa.gov/papers/techmemos/NWS-SR-193/techmemo-sr193-5.html#section5

Ms Zuboff seems to be compelled by emotion unrelated to actual facts on any connection between global warming and lightning. These words are a troubling IMO:

"I thought I could keep my children safe in this peaceful place. Now I know that no one of us can keep our children safe. There is no shelter from the storm of global warming."

Such anxiety is not uncommon.
http://www.boston.com/lifestyle/green/articles/2009/02/09/climate_change_takes_a_mental_toll/?page=full
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06:14 AM on 05/03/2012
You'd be correct--if only you weren't wrong:

1) Global; temps have risen around 15.C since the 1890s, with half that coming in the past three decades.

2) The NSSL lightning data page speaks only of lightning casualties and damage; it says nothing about the number of strikes.

With those two facts in mind, the rest of your comment is invalid.

Care to try again?
09:22 AM on 05/03/2012
15.C????? FIFTEEN degrees Celsius since 1890? I'd say maybe you left out the decimal point, but do you even have data to support 1.5 degrees? Here's some actual scientific data: http://people.iarc.uaf.edu/~sakasofu/pdf/global_temperature_change.pdf
This article is just another incredibly emotion-driven, fact-free association of a natural weather event with human-generated global warming, desperately publicized by the gullible media.
09:27 AM on 05/03/2012
This link should work better http://www.aip.org/history/climate/20ctrend.htm
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12:05 PM on 05/03/2012
Windy City Kid - Your link has to do with lightning casualties, not with the number of lightning strikes. Here's a nice source: http://www.lightningsafety.noaa.gov/lightning_map.htm
Pay particular attention to Maine (where she lives) in 1996 and Maine in 2000. Hm. Looks like her subjective impression was right.
04:20 PM on 05/03/2012
No trend on per capita basis. You've misled yourself. Why is it people find the concept of data normalization so difficult?
04:03 AM on 05/03/2012
Links have been provided to empirical data that says that temperatures in Maine are not on the rise. Why do alarmists find this kind of evidence easy to ignore, and go on to embrace GCMs and emotive language?
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12:18 PM on 05/03/2012
Galvanize - I didn't see any such links. But here's a nice little analysis: http://journals.ametsoc.org/doi/pdf/10.1175/JCLI3557.1
Look at the color of Maine in the graphs at the end of the study. Looks like Maine has been warming up.
04:22 PM on 05/03/2012
Can you find your nose? If so, direct your nose 4 more post down and look beyond your nose and you will find the link to the data.
01:44 AM on 05/03/2012
Ill logic .
11:17 PM on 05/02/2012
"Climate change victim", the new frontier of victimhood. How does it compare in terms of victim status with other protected groups of the liberal pantheon? Would it give you career advancement priority over, say, a black lesbian, or a one-legged Muslim? What color ribbon shall we wear to express solidarity with the disempowered class of climate change victims?
11:03 PM on 05/02/2012
Will you please post the actual temperatures in Maine for the last century that you refer to? I was under the impression that average temperatures have been quite stable. Thank you.