I must confess that I greatly envy those who are able to hold on to their faith firmly no matter what may come. I want to believe; yet can't especially in the light of recent tragedies. Where is that just and loving being that has the power to love me in this life and the next? Where is my faith?
"Mama, is God a girl?" Looking down the road, I can see that the questions are only going to increase and get more and more interesting. Years of explanations and serious conversations unfold in front of me, and I wonder how well I will do.
Deep insecurities and fears of alienation kept me from asking the hard questions. However, when philosophy gave me the tools to submit my beliefs to more intellectual scrutiny, I became ready for the deeper, more honest conversion God was willing to give.
Now what makes this even more complicated is the fact that most of the statements about Hell found in the Bible are said by Jesus. The one who is leading me to question Hell, seems to be the very one who teaches it.