12/23/2010 10:28 am ET Updated Dec 06, 2017

Gwyneth Paltrow: 'It Was Strange' To Date Ben Affleck, Brad Pitt (PHOTOS)

Gwyneth Paltrow is in love with and happily married to "genius" Coldplay singer Chris Martin, but she admits that her previous Hollywood relationships weren't quite as blissful.

Paltrow told E! in a special that aired Wednesday night that her relationships with Brad Pitt and Ben Affleck were a bit surreal. "It was strange to be part of a public couple," she said (via Us Weekly). It was over half a decade of strangeness for her, then; she dated Pitt from 1994-1997, and the pair was briefly engaged; and she was on-and-off with Ben Affleck from 1997 to 2000.

Now married to Martin, whom she met in 2002, Paltrow has two children: daughter Apple, 6, and son Moses, 4. Moses' birth in 2006, she said, was a difficult time for her, as she suffered from post-partum depression.

"You don't want anybody to know that you're depressed or crying all the time," she said in the special. "There's this shame that we bring to it and it's incredibly debilitating and scary and you just don't feel like yourself."

For more on the interview, click over to US Weekly.