08/16/2011 12:07 pm ET Updated Oct 16, 2011

Carlos Zambrano Apologizes For Walking Out On Team, Says He Wants To Stay With Cubs (VIDEO)

In his first interview since his latest meltdown on the mound on Friday night against the Atlanta Braves, Cubs pitcher Carlos Zambrano told Comcast SportNet's David Kaplan that he wants to remain a Chicago Cub.

"I want to keep pitching for the Cubs,"
he said. "[It was a] moment of frustration Friday night. I feel so bad that I want to retire. I don't want to be making $18 million and be pitching like crap."

Zambrano, who cleaned out his locker after getting ejected and abandoned his team, confirmed that he said he wanted to retire that night and explained that it happened out of frustration.

"I did say I want to quit. I did say that Friday night," Zambrano said. "I was so frustrated that should have never come out of my mouth. I tell you through that frustration I say those words."

One day after Zambrano walked out on the team, the Cubs organization placed him on the disqualified list and said he would receive no pay for 30 days.

Zambrano addressed the punishment, saying he'll play for the Cubs if the team welcomes him.

"If they don't basically they choose to do something else, I have to play for somebody else," he said. "But from the bottom of my heart I would be a Cubbie forever. And I would thank God, thank the Cubs, thank everybody that support me through my career with the Cubs organization and just move on."

However, Gordon Wittenmyer of the Chicago Sun-Times (per Hardball Talk) believes Big Z won't pitch for the Cubs ever again.

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