06/21/2012 11:47 am ET Updated Jun 21, 2012

'Octomom' Nadya Suleman Won't Let Her Kids See Her Sex Tape

Nadya "Octomom" Suleman's much-hyped solo sex tape is now available for everyone to see. However, Suleman hopes her 14 children never view mommy pleasuring herself.

"I'm scared that my parents will see the video, and, of course, my children can't watch it, but eventually I will talk with them about it. I'm not ashamed of my body," Suleman tells me. "Maybe this will open the door to more opportunities. This has changed my perspective of myself. For me, doing this means I no longer have to hide the sexual part of myself."

She adds, "I denied it for so long and wasn't that comfortable or that confident in myself, but now I have faced that fear. It is very empowering. The most difficult part of taping was touching my bottom part. It didn't really know what I was doing, but I tried my best."

Suleman admits she was taken aback when she first saw the final product, but says she had so much fun making the video that she might make another.

"It was shocking watching it for the first time, but it's very tasteful," she observes. "Before doing it, I was terrified. But doing it, I conquered my fears and would do it again. It's fun filming it," says Suleman. "It was the most amazing experience ever."

Although the famous mom doesn't mind that strangers can watch her touching herself, she still isn't ready to let somebody else hold her -- on or off camera.

"I'm still very much celibate, because I keep that sacred for one person that [I] love. I was last with someone 13-and-a-half years ago. I don't even remember what sex is like. I will have to start all over again," she confesses. "The world revolves around relationships, and I have been denying myself that. It has also validated my belief that what you do with another person is sacred."