12/17/2012 11:12 am ET Updated Feb 16, 2013

Will Newtown Be The Breaking Point? | Loop21

When she thinks about the shooting, Shianne Norman knows there is no answer to the "why?" and so instead goes back into the "what ifs?" What if things had somehow unfolded differently? Would her little boy, the one who loved pancakes and bananas and fighting with his sister, then still be alive?

"This is, I hope, the worst I will ever feel in my life," Norman told the "New York Times." "Please don't tell me my son is in a better place. Though it's true, I wanted him to be with me. Don't tell me to be thankful for the time I had, because I want more."

The country is consumed with the deaths of the 20 children, ages 6 and 7, who were killed Friday at Sandy Hook Elementary in Newtown, Conn.

On Friday morning, parents received calls instructing them to go to the school, and they waited at a nearby fire station for news. As the hours passed, most had tearful reunions with their children; but finally, officials came into the room to say that there were no more children to come. There would be no more reunions. Parents began to wail.