04/29/2017 09:05 am ET

Life of Agony's Mina Caputo: From Metal Alpha Male to Trans Role Model

As long-running band readies first album since singer’s transition, its members explain how years of anguish led to a brighter future

“I was going to commit suicide. It got really, really, really, really bad. I couldn’t live another day.”

Nearly a decade has passed since Mina Caputo last seriously contemplated killing herself, but remembering the pain she felt before she came out publicly as transgender in 2011 still causes her face to tighten. She’ll talk about it, but she’s also quick to highlight how much better her life is these days. That’s because, after concealing her true self for decades as the frontperson for the metal group Life of Agony, she feels at peace.

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