'Is Having an Ego Good or Bad?'

"These aren't even that good. I think I could do better."

That's one of the reasons I started writing. Because I was reading other articles and that thought came to mind.

I've even thought that about books. Famous books. Brilliant books.

Who the fuck am I to think that?

That's my ego.

And I'm grateful for it.

Because I never would've started writing without it. I never would've found something I love to do without it. I never would've been able to quit my 9-5 without it.

But.

Sometimes I get too caught up in it.

I'll let other people's accomplishments get inside me and make me feel bad. I become jealous. I become resentful.

I let myself be tricked into think I'm not good enough, or doing enough, or being enough.

That's when my ego becomes unhelpful.

I don't think having an ego is good or bad.

I think it's good and bad.

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